That inevitable discovery of the bright side of dark art is a theme for Wilson. "The fact is I'm a really, really moody, sometimes depressive person. But I'm not suicidal, that's just not me," he says. "I can guarantee you, when you're slammin' with the band and all the people are singing along, it's not a self-pitying experience. It's totally the transcendent joy of creation. It's not a very fashionable thing to acknowledge, but that's what it is.